Md. Ali Ashraf (Roni)

Somtime you get urself stuck sumwhere, widout words to explain…..

These lines explains the vacuum so perfectly….

“Behind These Hazel Eyes”
Kelly Klerkson

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin’ could go wrong
Now I can’t breathe
No, I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it, can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that’s left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
‘Cause I can’t breathe
No, I can’t sleep
I’m barely hangin’ on

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it, can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don’t cry on the outside
Anymore..

I tried to figure out where i made it wrong, why i could not fill up the needs, i could not. Till now im trying to figure out things,trying to regain the trust, but its way to hard for me.

May be its true that the strengths of my devotion werent enough, i failed to grant enough care.

I trusted the destiny, maybe the path to it mislead me. I gave up everything for the trust i knew i had, and ended up losing all of it.

I need to believe. I cant.

after a long long time, ive put myself in my comfortable zone again, heh heh…

i was hopin to try a vector thing, but the time was against me, so i cudnt play with vectors, instead i ended up with this….

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hehhh,,,its been a long time since ive posted nething….was bz wid final xm n stuffs….m in sylhet now….havin a good time wid frnds all around me……

…..but not as good as it seems……

…may b m in da verge of losing my sanity….

sum 1…very special…ummm…not special…..it shud be sum 1 who is evthing for me….is being badly treated….i m forcing myself to badly treat that person…..

dunno wat 2 r8,dunno wat 2 do, i jus don wanna hurt u, nd i don wanna……not wanna….i cant lose u…..m doing this because i don wanna hurt u..not now…not in the future….jus wanna b wid u…but its just dat…if i cant b wid ya foreva…whats da point of making things much more complicated?i don wanna look for dat happiness which,in the end, will end up in a complete mess…but how can i live widout u? another paradox?

sounds like words of a confuzed-about-2-be-broken heart?…….nah….this heart cant possibly break…mayb cuz it wasnt even whole 2 start wid…

haranor voy a aaj dhorte chai na kisu
ojanar shopno chare na je tobu pichu
jodi tomai abar daki
jodi na dei konobar ar faki
ekbaro,
thakba naki?

i will give what i have….the very best of me…..just to make that call once again……n GOD m i not wanting to do so……

passing miserable days doing this n that…..lyk taking xperimental pics n creatinh logos…..below u will find few samples…..

finally…..i know_ _ _,so do i.

I was soooooooooooooooooo tired of xms n classes…….at the afternoon….after the act202 xm…..i went to my frinds place…….hebbi moja korlam….we played pool…addafying was there….nd den at night…..we started playing…..yah……u guessed it r8……..twenty-9……..

wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii……..jei moja hoiseeeeee………..hebbi mojaaaaaaaa…………we started playing at around 10pm……nd believe it or not……we went to sleep at around 7am………and till then we were playing twenty-9………had a lucky night……hahahhaa…….dui bar jitsi……..thanks 2 nakib for the treat……..arekdin eirokom aashor boshai dite hobe………wi wi wi….moda moda….

Final two days of our tour…..
well the thing is, i don wanna type out the whole story now…..instead ill just post few pics of day 4…
hopfully ill add things up in a short time……

——————Sohra Eco Park (Cherapunji)

——————The flooded plain land u can see in this picture,thats Bangladesh!

——————A Closer view of the 7 Sister falls

——————7 Sister Falls

——————I forgot the name of this cave……it was creepy!

——————From left : Sakib, Mustaq, Jewel, Akhlak and Me of course!

Actually this was the first morning of Shillong for us. We woke up at around 9 am, got ready and then went out n had breakfast, of course the menu was Indian . Then we went to the state bank of India for exchanging dollars against rupees. After that, we were looking for a taxi, and just then we found our friend, philosopher n guide…..Sonup Roy, A young local taxi driver, who was with us for the rest of the days. He a had cute red tata indico cab, with a very good sound system….hahah….man we enjoyed riding his cab.

Newayz, lets moce on, it was about 12.30 when we reached our first local tourist spot….the elephant falls…… 12 kms on the outskirts of the city the mountain stream descends through two successive falls set . A well paved footpath and a small wooden bridge connect to two smaller falls which areequally beautiful and captivating. These are the Wei Iaplam Falls and the Wir Phang Falls. We just loved the view of it.

————————Elephat Falls————————–

Next we went to the Shillong peak…… 1965 metres above sea level and 10 kms from the city, offers a panoramic view of entire Shillong, and is also the highest point in the State. This place was the most beautiful one, at least for me, ahhh….just cudnt manage enough scope for a second visit there…….

——————-Shillong Peak—————————

After that, there was Lady Hydri park…… stretching over a km is replete with roses and blossoms of exquisite hues and colors. Owes its existence to Lady Hydari, the wife of an erstwhile Governor of Assam. It has an excellent mini zoo cum deer park.

———————Lady Hydri Park———————–

Next we moved on to Don Bosco church…..A mega sized and beautiful catholic church…..

———————Don Bosco Church———————–

Later, it was Ward’s Lake: A century old picturesque lake. Located in the heart of the city, popular for short garden walks and boating. The local people however prefer to call it Nan Polok (Polok’s Lake) after an executive engineer named Mr. Pollock. We did a lil boating there…….it was fun…heheheh…..

——————-Ward’s Lake———————

Then we went to Shillong Golf Course, which is considered to be the “Glen-eagle of the East” at the United States Golf Association Museum. It was set in a valley at an altitude of 5200 ft in 1898 as a 9 (nine)hole course and later converted into a 18 (eighteen) hole course in 1924 by Captain Jackson and C. K. Rhodes. We didn’t like it that much….but it was ok though……

—————————-Golf Course—————————-

Finally, It was BadaPani…. Developed upon the mighty reservoir of the Umiam Hydro Electric Project, at Umiam, 16 kilometres beforereaching Shillong. The campus consists of a beautiful Orchid Lake Resort, the Nehru Park. Besides it offers a wide choice of exciting water sports activities….we didn’t see all of it, but the reservoir alone was enough for us…..we looooooooooved that place….btw…..we also loved the view from the dam of the project……

——————–Bada Pani———————-

1,2,3,4,5,6 and 7………wow! we visited 7 spots in a single day….hahhaha…..dat was fun…..we really enjoyed our time throughout the day…….it was about 6.30 when reached the hotel…..and then…..dinner….balcony party….29……..chit chating…..and ghuuuuuuuuuuuum…..

End of Day 2! was fun…….:D

The day was like..ummm….in Bangla, we call it ‘vapsha gumot gorom’. Me n my 4 friends Sakib, Jewel, Mustaq n Akhlak started for shillong, the hilly capital city of meghalaya state. We were late already and lil mishaps caused more delay, but finally we reached tamabil border…… after the imigration was over….. for the first time of my life i stepped into another country . I though it wud take a hell of a mess 2 complete the imigration, but was q8 easy….on both sides……..the actual problem we faced was the problem of transportation from dawki to shilong. Taxi drivers were not so helpful……we payed a lil higher then the usual rate……and sumhow managed to squeeze ourselves in a maruti suzuki 800.

How was the journey?

Awsome! The views were simply breathtaking……..the road goes all the way climbing to 6000 feet (approx.) and we cud feel the clouds in our hands…..god that felt so good……

It took us almost 4 hours to reach Shillong……without ne stoppage. The hotel we stayed in was Broadway, fikz……….guess wat….the manager was a sylheti guy……i made a call 2 dhaka….told popsi dat i reached safely……climbed the stairs…..entered the room……..bang!……day 1 is over.(i don wanna mention the balcony party and trip 2 hotel radhuni :p)

Watch out for exciting day 2!

Clockwise:Pynusla Village, Roadside Photo session(Leftmost one is me),Clouds,Dawki Bridge

Ahhhhh…onek din por…..i cud spare sum tym to make a post…….. i was nd indeed i really was tooooo bz…..

My semester is not going quite as i expected….. fin n accounting seems much more harder……not harder actually…….. but confuzing n lengthy n boring…… lets hope for that i escape with a b+ avg…… allahi dibo……

i had a 21 day long class schedule without ne breaks…… aamar jan tita koira falaise nsu….. from 1 to 21st june …..everyday i had classes or mid……

My monitor was givin me trouble,so i had 2 change it, my cellphone was nearly smashed, i had 2 get out of mdm’s class cuz i didnt have ne calculator(funny part is i carry 1 in my bag every day n just on that thay my calculator got banged…..i even took money from mom for buying a new 1), xms r going frustrating, with a busy schedule….nd heavy workload of CC….i had 2 design 6 banners,1 poster n an invitation card….horrible horrible……and above all……i think i am having the weirdest kind of feeling in since the day i started to felt……ghor khulia bahir hoia josona dhorte jai…hat vorti chander aalo dhorte gele nai…..ami eivabei jochonar kache jaite partesi na……jaukga…….allai dibo

may b m going to shilong at the end of this week….uli dia guria aaimu….janina mon bala oibo ni…….

its just lyk this line….toamke ghire poth gulo shob shore jai…..

i know u…. so do i.

here is one of my latest creations…….

Tata

I was doing ratio analysis in my fin254 midterm….nd my friend imran was continuously calling me, as i was already late. I hurried to finish it up.I went running to the front of sher plaza where my friends were waiting for me, after a lil bitta gailmondo…….we started for ashulia…….thats how it all started……

Me, nd my friends was on the car of out senior vai, the one n only raju vai(was our driver :p)….woh ajnabee woh ajnabee n we r shouting n dancing inside the car…man we were having loads of fun……it took a while to reach ashulia…..we got off the car…..did a lil photo session :p…….nd then we went on to hunt some foods…..

from left Nabid, Apu, Imran, Raju vai n Nakib

We found Fuchka, Tea and of course Single Sundae n Cornelli…heh heh………we were chitchatting after eating, and without a seconds notice, it started raining heavily. We rushed for the car, when we got inside the car, we noticed that Apu wasn’t with us. Apu, who was having his 2nd plate of fuchka……could not run cuz he was eating…..hi hi…….ekkbare kak veja hoye aasche ek2 pore…….

Then we did a lil more chitchat nd on the way back…….oh god…..the most enjoyable part…..the convo b2n raju vai n apu….hahahha…..”driver er beton kat”…..

We all reached my home………….did a lil ’shongeet shadhona’………then they left…….. bohot majah aaya……. btw raju vai……if ur reading this…..u owe me 60 tk……

Guess with whom i am talking……..?

orey shampan wala…tui amare korli diwana….fikz…

Last n8 was another awful n8, i know very clearly what i have to do, but sumhow, just q8 how m not able to do that n god its so depressing…..

I cudnt sleep, so i started working on this site……last n8 i completed(partially) the photos and my world section…….just a few moments ago i completed about me section…….well….this site is almost done………glitz n glamour will be added l8r on :p…………….

i have a class within an hour, i hate these makeups……koto aram kore ghumaitam……….

khotota lekhiar….but ekh second or lagio amar mata taki horer na………..

kothai aalor uthshobe shopner protibimbo vangey….
eka eka ami thaki daraye…
sritir jhoro batashe dujonar
shorir meshate………